Are my learning statistics sad?

The narrative will be chaotic. I upgraded to a paid subscription in October or November 2016. I'm currently at level 28. from level 11 to 20 I had a lot of courage, excitement, and inspiration. There were moments of despair, they were replaced by delight “I can!”. It so happened that just from October-November there was no real work, there was a reserve of money to devote myself to training. What I am doing. I remember the tasks that I sat on for days, they did not give me peace. Now some global changes have occurred. There is practically no delight. Maybe this is the “desert of despair”? I tried sending out resumes... and the results made me ask myself the question, how do people at level 27 get jobs? At level 18 I created a training plan in Microsoft Project. It turned out that it takes me at least 10 working days to complete a level (the fastest is 1 day, I didn’t invest in the 20th and 25th. I postponed the refactoring. And I didn’t decide on the two bonus ones on the 20th). What kind of dedication do you need to have to complete 40 levels in 3 months? I've heard stories like this. Around level 26, I started wondering how much time I actually spend on training per day. I started timing it with a timer. I timed it for 9 days... it was enough for everything to fall into place... it turned out to be an average of 134 minutes per day, or a median of 112 minutes per day. That is, it is not necessary to have 8 working hours in reserve... anyone can work and study, with the exception of rare cases. The one who can keep his attention for 8 hours on his studies...will progress quickly. These are probably those who complete the entire course in 3 months. And now SADNESS. YouTube doesn’t provide statistics, so I had to do the math manually. How much time did I spend on it per day? I calculated it for May 10, 2017... it turned out to be 4 hours 26 minutes 16 seconds + other stuff (of which 40 minutes were lectures on Java :)), which is not related to studies. Total 6 hours of time to get down to business and less than 2 hours of training... yeah, where can I come from being delighted with myself... Maybe my numbers will give someone some ideas? Or you can just give a shit in the comments. PS Working on a computer is not for everyone? Or is this part of the learning process? Best regards, Artem.